My Thoughts

My thoughts are all over the place, I might be thinking, “What should I have for lunch?” and “What if we all are living in a simulation and life has no meaning?” concurrently, and it drives me nuts. Maybe this isn’t as common as I think it is among people, and it’s just the overthinking side of me, but I’m sure everyone faces the problem of having jumbled thoughts.

Writing Blogs 

I used to write a personal journal when I was in middle school, and it’s the only time I’ve written down my thoughts. I do write down the occasional thought or two, but I’ve never really sat down and opened up my thoughts since then. It was when I started reading books this year, the thought of writing something of my own seemed interesting. And blogging was something that always piqued my interest, but I was(am) self-conscious about my writing skills, so I never really went for it. But this time around I decided to pull the trigger and post my first blog post named “Intro“. And it sucked, but at least I did it. 

For the next 2 months, I didn’t have the guts to post anything. I was holding myself back, telling myself I didn’t know what type of blog I wanted this to be, but in retrospect I knew exactly what I wanted. No one was even going to read it, but the thought of putting myself out there was daunting to me. And it was only when I read the personal blog of a friend (Thanks Sona) that I realized that this can be my personal blog, my corner of the internet where I can share and free my thoughts. A place where I can share my “Pretentious Subjective Half-Baked Opinions“. (That’s right, I’m making that my tag-line)

As of now, I have posted a blog every day (not all written posts) for this entire month of December. I don’t think I’m going to be this consistent moving forward, but It definitely showed me that I CAN do it, and there’s so much more for me to tell. Like for example, my thoughts on social media is one which I struggled to grasp on for many years, it’s been in my head jumbled and tangled with no concrete foundation, and it was only until I wrote the post “Why I Quit Every Social Media” (read it HERE), that I finally got the peace of mind I was looking for. And I think I understand now how writing blogs helped me, and why blogs are more helpful for clearing your thoughts than personal journals.   

When you write in your journal, you never look back on it. Yes, you feel like you’ve lifted a burden off your chest, but you don’t try to understand that thought. It’s just set and done, never to be seen again, until you inevitably stumbles upon it years later. But when you write a blog post, even if no one is going to read it, you try to put your best self out there and make the post as easy to read as possible (this is totally subjective). So you make the post easy to understand, with good structure and go through many drafts to reach the final post. This is what helped me. As a teacher learns the subjects better as they teach each time, I started understanding my own thoughts better as I was writing them down and going through the different drafts. As I was editing and restructuring my blogs, I was indirectly editing and restructuring my own thoughts. And as I was making my post easy to understand for the reader, I was indirectly making it easy to understand for myself. Now, every time I look back on my past posts, I feel content with myself. Because I know this is the best representation of my current thoughts. But as everything, my thoughts are subjected to change, and I’m looking forward to when I contradict myself. But until then, this works.

As this year comes to a close I want to mention what I have planned for this blog next year. First off, I want this to be a permanent hobby of mine and not one of those “phase hobbies”. Secondly, as I said before, I’m not going to post every day but at least a few posts a month would be nice. Thirdly, I want to broaden my topics, because as of now, I have posted mainly about self-help stuff, and although I like writing about it, I also want to share my opinions of other things too. And finally, thank you! Yes you. You’re one of the very few who read this and for whom I try to make my posts easy to read. So incidentally, you also helped me clear my thoughts. So thank you! 🙂